Forward looking

Maybe it's the winter but I'm anxious for the end. It feels like a coming together of things. On the one hand, I can see my friends and family being set up now for the rest of their lives. It might have been interesting to see what I would have been like as an uncle. Or a dad. Or as a houseowner. Or as someone who was everyone to someone. I have no personal regrets though. My life has played out just as it was meant to and I can't pretend that I haven't had fun. My sole regret is attached to the people I have let down and whose lives I have adversely affected.

I don't deserve my fantastic friends. No one deserved my upbringing. My parents were always too busy to be parents to their children and now I'm too busy to be a friend to my friends. I hope you can forgive me as I have forgiven my parents. They only did what they saw fit and now they have their just rewards.

As for my past employers, I laud your ability to allow me to work for you despite my scant attention to detail, poor work ethic and often lack of essential knowledge. Yes, I blagged it. I've blagged it at every job since 1994. Maybe a better candidate missed out on the jobs I took but I maybe I saved them from the managers and companies I worked at. Who knows? I salve my conscience by trying to find better jobs for my friends and family. At the last count, I think I helped people find 8 jobs. That's more than I've had, I think

Happy new year, you guys and pray God its my last.