That HotBlack Desiato dude. I totally know where he was coming from!

Forward looking

Maybe it's the winter but I'm anxious for the end. It feels like a coming together of things. On the one hand, I can see my friends and family being set up now for the rest of their lives. It might have been interesting to see what I would have been like as an uncle. Or a dad. Or as a houseowner. Or as someone who was everyone to someone. I have no personal regrets though. My life has played out just as it was meant to and I can't pretend that I haven't had fun. My sole regret is attached to the people I have let down and whose lives I have adversely affected.

I don't deserve my fantastic friends. No one deserved my upbringing. My parents were always too busy to be parents to their children and now I'm too busy to be a friend to my friends. I hope you can forgive me as I have forgiven my parents. They only did what they saw fit and now they have their just rewards.

As for my past employers, I laud your ability to allow me to work for you despite my scant attention to detail, poor work ethic and often lack of essential knowledge. Yes, I blagged it. I've blagged it at every job since 1994. Maybe a better candidate missed out on the jobs I took but I maybe I saved them from the managers and companies I worked at. Who knows? I salve my conscience by trying to find better jobs for my friends and family. At the last count, I think I helped people find 8 jobs. That's more than I've had, I think

Happy new year, you guys and pray God its my last.

Beginning of the end

This is not intended to be read by any of my friends. Not yet. If you know me, look away now. Seriously.